If you ever want to talk again, meet me on a Thursday in May at the place where we had our first date — by the picnic tables.
You’ll remember it. Sitting in my green Chevy Silverado, eating fast food — Burger King for me, and you deciding between McDonald’s or Wendy’s.
Music playing, talking for hours. Funny how sometimes you realize later… this must be the place.
No expectations. No pressure. Just a chance to finally say the things that never got said.
If you show up, we talk.
If not, I’ll understand.
But I’ll probably still be there anyway.
I hate that I belong to this nationality, i hate the way I look and the way I think because I’m no different from most of these people who disgust me. It’s crazy how much I don’t want to be around these people, and at the same time I don’t want to be anywhere else so as not to disfigure anything with myself. I have no future, no dignity, no hope. It’s such a pity I wasn’t born in the ussr when there was no internet and everything was closed; then I wouldn’t have known that there was another life, I would have just cum in my pants from propaganda about the glorious Motherland and enjoyed all this crap, and everything would have been wonderful.
I had this one friend named “Samantha”, I’ll call her. She is a year younger than me but she skipped a grade so we were both in eighth grade last year. She was the “new girl” in fifth grade and we instantly hit it off. She, back then, asked me out and we started dating. Now, we were immature and we broke up since the relationship was toxic, as I had a stubborn, rude personality and she had a sarcastic, mean, and biting one, like saying “Well duh, you think?"/"You’re so dumb"/"You’ll never survive without me, because you’re like a kid” (because of my autism). I was a kid, but that was beside the point. I’m still a kid, I’m only 15.
No matter what, I cannot seem to adhere to unwritten rules for things. Everything has to be laid out step-by-step and clearly for me like I’m a robot or something. I hate it. I sometimes can’t process language of any kind, not even my own native English to the point where people think I’m a second language speaker.
Yeah, I kind of sound like a music snob or an old man at this time. I’ve been introducing her to classic rock, heavy metal, 90s hip-hop, R&B, 90s and 80s pop, 90s 2000s and 2010s techno, and so on.
You know, the CIA boss based on Sir Patrick Stewart from American Dad. Even if Sir Patrick Stewart isn’t a person I’d ever meet in my life, he is still a real person, and I don’t really want to do weird stuff to a real person, but his hot, degenerate character? Yessir!
On Saturday, I took a road trip up to my “local” hardwood dealer. “local” here meaning it’s in the same state I live in; it’s on the opposite edge but same flag under the stars and stripes. On the way back, I noticed a distinctive haze through the trees, not as thick as mist and slightly blue. Wood smoke. A LOT of wood smoke, with no apparent source for the amount I saw. Couldn’t see any farmers burning trash near the road, the local army base hadn’t said anything about clearing brush.
So I get attracted to the noise people make when they sleep: snoring. I tend to prefer lighter snores that just help me sleep at night without being obnoxious, but the fact that they make such a sound and they’re completely unaware of anything I might do, especially if I’m watching them while they’re defenseless (but I wouldn’t actively kiss them or worse or something), is so wonderful to me.
Hi, I’m using this because it’s the instance I’m on right now and I can connect with Scandinavian people and talk about it. I lowkey want to move to Norway or something but anywhere is fine as long as it’s not the USA. Problems? Money, I can’t just move to another country in a snap, and my family is super Trumper and patriotic. They are super against moving to another country and learning another language
I’ve been working with so many students who turn to it as a first resort for everything. The second a problem stumps them, it’s AI. The first source for research is AI.
So when I was 12, way back like 6 years ago, I was in eighth grade (skipped a grade), I was in a group chat with my friends and we’d gotten each other’s numbers. We Zoomed each other too.
So there used to be this one person I talked to, “Alex” (any pronouns, nb?). Anyway, I found out they were actually close friends with these “fortune tellers” who kept wanting me to send nudes and do roleplays where they would have sex with me without my consent (so rapey pedophilic roleplays).
I am experiencing a rough time in which I really was sorely needing the validation of being around people who liked me, but due to unfortunate luck, it all went to hell. My morale is lower than ever, and I still need to finish the awful and dehumanising process that made me so low in the first place
It’s going on so much in our world, even if I try to ignore it. I try to think conservatives aren’t all bad, but every one I’ve seen is awful. Now I think they’re all bad, sadly. Take this one user for example online, saying immigrants are evil but then following it up with “I don’t HATE immigrants”. Uh, yeah, sure you don’t. Defending Trump, rape, and pedophilia too thinking it’s a good thing too. How evil do you have to be?
When you tell people you have OCD they think your a neat freak or something. No! I live in near constant dread and anxiety from everything from “will eating this bread kill me?” to vile and disturbing shit that I don’t feel comfortable sharing with to anyone other than a therapist. People don’t understand. They don’t see how it eats away at you. Doubting who you are or why you do the things you do, doubting what you know to be true, constantly second guessing yourself. It’s absolute hell. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. I’m not posting this for sympathy. More so curious if anyone can relate. Misery loves company I guess.
Due to low self esteem and poor social skills, i dont usually approach women irl, also i fear im making them scaried or im bothering them. When i do, im usually rejected and i get really sad over this and i usually drink alcohol as a coping mechanism. All girls i approached in my life rejected me. I know im not entitled to relationships or anything and they have all the right to reject me, but i still get very sad over this, but i feel like using alcohol only makes things worse. I approached a girl at the gym, asked for her name, presented myself, i told her i considered her and her smile and voice beautiful, but ultimately i was rejected. I dont know if im overreacting or if its fine to drink in such occasions.
Unless he breaks up with me, as long as that doesn’t happen, I will stay by his side and I no longer care that he seems to prefer someone else over me. I guess that’s how our poly relationship will work and I should suck it up. I love him anyway and he’ll be spending time with just me at therapy group.
So after everything that happened, she said she’s suicidal and may or may not do it and that if she doesn’t respond, she did it or is in the hospital. If she does, she will let me know that she’s alive or decided not to kill herself. She says I didn’t make her kill herself but I’m in shock
So I’m only 15. While I hope my boyfriend is the one for me, I also doubt it. I have had a girlfriend “Amy” since I was 12 but I am polyamorous and so is my boyfriend “Avery”. He is also dating some dude who I’ll call “Alex” since his name starts with the same letter as Avery’s and my girlfriend’s.
The company I work for has been bough out by private equity and then dismantled to be sold in parts. Last week a good part of employees have been laid off, and the rest of us transferred to one of the successor companies. Nobody’s complaining, those laid off got compensated really really well.
I will confess, I’m not that great at grammar. Mainly, I’m the sort of person that write/type stuff as I am thinking it and barely look back at what I have wrote. I see it as that it’s online and it’s as informal as it gets. As long as it is readable, it shouldn’t matter if it not 100% perfect.
So it seems to be rampant on Snapchat, the misogyny and right-wing politics. One video had a woman who decided not to have sex or kids with her husband and some person commented how it was typical of a modern woman not to want to make a baby for the family. This user also commented really bigoted stuff with trans and intersex people. It also gives pick me vibes since apparently this commenter was a woman.
Its the primaries over here and its peoples chance to choose who will run on the democratic ticket in the general election. You may not like the two party system or the lack of rank choice voting but this is peoples chance to determine who might take governement positions. I hope no one who throws out the democrats don’t do enough are voting in the primaries because otherwise they are the reason what we get with democrats is what it is. Primaries because its just one party pretty much doubles the value of ones vote and further since they get less turnout it at least doubles it again. So the vote effect is in excess of 3x at a minimum. Citizenship in the us has two repsonsibilities. Voting and jury duty. Both are important to democracy.
I’m sadly moving on from lemming.world, which is shutting down. I saw a post about someone on Quora being hateful to the “damn liberals” while claiming to be a victim and getting upset over hate comments for being a bigot. What the hell…
Kinda sucks still to find out the whole thing was being recorded but the show was real… anyways, time to turn into the Mask! I am multiple of Jim Carrey’s characters!
Seriously, I get curious about Conservative (specifically American Conservative) communities. About why they’re so liked. About why my family praises them so much and wants me to be a Trump-worshipping Conservative. But all I find is nonsensical AI slop, insanity, and asshole behavior. Treating minorities like they’re non-humans without feelings. Acting like white straight able-bodied people are superior to those who are either not white, not straight, not able-bodied, or none of the above.
I hope someone shares their thoughts. Like, is this a roleplayer or someone who needs genuine therapy and mental help? So, I probably shouldn’t say the name of this user, but if anyone knows who I’m talking about, I posted about them before. They make posts about being different characters, and usually this alien called Tokio. They claim to be a ghost and the last of the Martians who died in 715 AD or something, and they asked if it was just them or if anyone else would kill for their partner or something. I’m kinda concerned but IDK. They got banned for a bit from Asklemmy.
So I (F15) have liked this guy (M16) since a little bit after we first started to become friends almost 3 years ago. I was 13 and Avery, my BF, was 14. Well, I thought all chances of us being a thing beyond friends were gone when he mentioned his girlfriend at the time, so my feelings went away. We met at therapy group and the group leader left, and so did he, so that helped my feelings to go away. I thought they went away forever though.
Being single, I don’t have to worry about my boyfriend looking at and lusting over other women. Or not listening to me. Or judging me. Shouting at me. Calling me names. Threatening suicide. Or about his well being 🤷♀️. Keeping him interested…. The list goes on. Rethinking if being with him is really worth it…
I have discovered that I have AI slopies of me on YouTube. And not just that, but they appear before me in search results. They all claim to be animation channels, which isn’t my main thing, but my username is unique enough that I haven’t encountered anyone/anything else using it until the slopies showed up and I’ve had this name for like 10 years. My channel is so small though that idk why they’d even want to copy my name but they did anyways. One of them even has more subs than me but I assume those are all bots since it’s a slop channel.
So for those who saw my first post as Tokio, I have another part of my past to tell you!!! This will be what I remember from the war and my death, and also my friend to the end, Prince Kuli Bopi. And also I need to say that I was born on Mars as Satan’s humanoid Martian nephew.
Greetings. It is I, Tokio again. I need not introduce myself perhaps, as I did already in my last post. I am the last of the Martian people. I am also the nephew of Satan himself from Hell, though not to spread evil, but chaos and to live among you eventually.
bit dramatic but i feel like its the only thing im good at.
comitting the 7 deadly sins. its all i live for. it controls my life in a way i cant see it doing to others.
so my friend is genderfluid and his dad is pretty supportive of ice and thinks my friend will “always be a girl” and is just “delusional”. also, i’m russian. my parents are russian and my dad is part-russian and mainly german. he has no problem with us, probably because we are documented and not colored. but even if someone is documented, they get accused of being “illegal” so many times, it’s so annoying
Hey, everyone. I’m not the usual poster you see from this account. Normally, it’s by this girl who goes by “Frankie” but the person, or rather, alien, writing this, is named Tokio. I say “alien” because I am actually from Mars. The Martian race was kept secret for a long time by people who knew about the aliens on Earth, but in reality, they’re thriving, though in hiding. By now, I may be the last of my kind, as I was born in Earth year 700 A.D. You see, the Martian language has different words made from different sounds, and if you put the sounds “to” and “kyo”, or “kio”, together, you get my name. I know it sounds a lot like the Japanese city, in fact, exactly like it, but that’s merely coincidence.
Here’s why I think I’m a selfish person. I have really bad intrusive thoughts, I need to speak with a therapist on this, too. If I were given the choice between Choice A) Anything I want/a million dollars but I have to kill my friend(s) or B) My friend(s) stay(s) alive but I don’t get what I want, I would probably kill my friend. Especially when pressured. But I’m complex. I value human life, pretty much, or any life in general, and don’t want to kill anybody. I would just kill when or if necessary and if I didn’t get caught. I still care about my friendships though, so I don’t say I’m gonna kill them or go out of my way to harm them or our friendship. I would really prefer to have all my friends as is but I feel like if pressured enough between two choices, I would kill to get what I want. I’m so ashamed of this, I feel SO bad.
Most people will probably disagree and say that I shouldn’t be here if I don’t like it, but yeah, like the title said. I switched over from Reddit for various reasons, and at first it was nice, but now it’s making me depressed just casually browsing Lemmy. Everything here is so drab and negative, sometimes even downright hateful. Everything sucks, here’s a list of companies you should never use, here’s people that do horrible things, here’s a bunch of complaints about stuff. This is why the world sucks, this is why your favourite thing is actually stupid, this is why you shouldn’t enjoy xyz anymore.
A few years ago, I met a man online. I was 19 then, and he was 32. It was my first romantic experience and mostly my last. I don’t know how to explain that feeling… I woke up in the middle of the night several times to check his messages. We could talk about literally everything under the world. It was incredible. I thought he was the kindest and most gentle person I’d ever seen in my entire life. I didn’t even see his face, although he really wanted to show it to me, but for some reason I wanted to hold off on it, even though he had seen my photo. But I could imagine what he looked like based on how he described himself to me and I heard his voice, and I’m sure that even if he really were as unattractive as he considered himself, I would love him no matter what. He really gave the impression of a man who would accept me for who I was and would never leave me. I don’t think I’ve ever felt happier than I did then….
Wasn’t sure if I wanted to put it out there, but I needed a place to let it out. I suppose my situation was too good to be true. Dated for years, but the marriage itself did not make it to a single year, at least unofficially.
I know this person that I have (what I consider to be) a very complicated history with. Without giving the whole boring story, I was into them in middle school, we dated a couple of times, had a falling out, reconnected, and have since fallen out again. That was over the course of almost 20 years now.
Like unless I’m on a fucking gaming computer or browsing a free-Internet site like Lemmy, every fucking website feels like the first time I tried to browse the Internet on my flip phone in sixth grade when it was slower than fucking molasses and everything was broken.
I’ve worked in a supermarket for most of my adulthood. I can confirm that nobody likes the self checkouts. Least of all the staff. We’re supposed to be in eight places at once, monitoring for compliance, preventing shrinkage, helping with the exceptions. But the people using the checkouts haven’t been trained to, they’re customers, they don’t know what they’re doing, so they’re going to compound it by making mistakes too.
I just had a meeting with HR. So for context, the past year or so has been kinda rough at work with anxiety, depression, and ADHD meds that no longer seem to work quite as well as they had been for the previous 20 years. So when stress got the better of me, I made some stupid mistakes, and made a snarky comment or two on Teams. I’ve actually been feeling burned out off and on for several years, but I do still get some satisfaction from coding, even after 13 years at the same company with glowing performance reviews.
I’ve always been underweight, my entire life. Even as a teenager. I’ve not been able to get above 125, and at the moment, I’m at 103. My BMI is 14.8. I know I need to eat at least double the calories, but I get nauseous if I eat too much. I’m also lactose intolerant and allergic to tree nuts, so it makes it hard to supplement with protein shakes. I tried the fairlife protein shakes but I think my digestive tract doesn’t agree with monkfruit.
I sold my S&P 500 ETF’s back in 2016 after the election. I honestly thought the US economy was no longer a good long-term investment (I guess here 10 years later I was objectively wrong), but mostly because I didn’t like the direction the country was heading. Most people here saw his first term as a kind of satirical buffonery, kind of like a circus animal, that papers covered the same way you’d cover a kooky reality TV show. Everyone would kind of tune in (Or try to tune out), to find out what he’d do next.
I recently accepted a position at a mid sized company after finally getting interviews following a year of searching. I have been trying to leave my current job at a larger company because I am burned out and do not respect the leadership. I dislike it so much that I gave my manager my notice right away. He is a good manager and I wanted to make the transition smooth. But I did this before the background check cleared.
I’m fucking *stunned* at the number of people who claim to be “Progressive” but sincerely believe protests in Iran are a vast Mossad operation that should be put down.
I’m bipolar, but I have never, ever had a manic episode while sober. Each manic episode was caused either by cannabis use or cannabis withdrawal. From my doctor’s point of view, I’ve seemed like I just have vanilla bipolar disorder, but that’s because they never knew just how much pot I smoked. I was never completely honest with my doctors. I told them I smoked pot, but I never told them I smoked as much as I actually did.
I always tell my dad, “Wealthy people tend to date wealthy people; a girl from a multi-millionaire family isn’t going to date the pizza guy.” My dad says, “No, that’s not true. What if she really likes him, or what if NO guy from an upper-class family wants to date her?” And another really stupid line of reasoning is, “Why would a guy from an upper-class family care about a woman’s background if he’s the one who wants to ‘take care’ and ‘provide’ for her?”
He either says “fake news”, when the news comes up, that Trump is not racist, that Trump is racist but he doesn’t care because he hates the Arabs and “illegal” Latinos too, and thinks that it was people like Renee Good’s fault for getting shot. Not only that, but he constantly misgenders me even when I’m genderfluid and use he/;him sometimes too and thinks transgender and nonbinary people don’t exist. Just wanted to share that.
Okay, we get it. We fucking get it. You think your free open-source OS is the best shit ever made. But you know what? I’m continuing to use what I’m using and been using, because I’m about sick of the smugness radiating off of any sap who uses Linux.
About last month I venting to my friends just about life and things and I made the mistake of admitting that I needed money for a good therapist and they were like “do you really need one though?” and I had to explain that I’m am a person who deals with schizophrenia and I need help with dealing with seeing/hearing things and coping with my condition.
My wife drank herself to death the night of her 29th birthday, 2011. We’d been together for 10 years, and I had been trying to force her into getting help for her alcoholism for the previous 4. 2 months before she died, I told her she had to go back to her mom’s place. I told her “I can’t watch you destroy yourself any more.”
So my (formerly agnostic, now atheist) friend (Christian) is very Christian and obsesses over it. Her only friends besides me are Christian and all they talk about is the Bible, Jesus, and God. She also tries to “convert” people. She tried to convert me by asking what my relationship with God as like, if I read the Bible, etc. and tried to get me to apologize to God for being agnostic and not Christian “for Christianity is the only true religion and He will come soon”.
I’m in a field where remote work should be possible, but I’m not lucky enough to have landed such a job. I have to go to the office every single damn day.
I just don’t know how to not ruminate about the fact that my country is running fucking death camps. There were ICE raids in neighborhoods in my city, neighborhoods that my students lived in (before they made it impossible to teach and be trans).
im so tired mentally n physically and idk what to do. i got banned from reddit again too for “breaking the rules” and i know i shouldn’t have now but i was looking for s bf for my friend and now reddit thinks im a pedo. im just lile them despite being 14 im just like the pedos whose faces i wanna bash in…
There is this beautiful woman at my local Walmart who recognises me; she always smiles and waves at me. She usually works at the service desk and, from across the room, said, “How are you doing?” Now I’m aware retail workers are nice to customers because they have to be, but I still decided to shoot my shot. While no one was at the service area, she said, “Do you need help with something?” I was nervous and asked her name. She told me. I asked her how her Christmas was, and she said, “Good.” It was clear she didn’t want to have a conversation, so I just said, “I just wanted to say hi,” and left.
This can be said for a lot of things, but I will use private school as an example. There was a Reddit post not too long ago about middle-class parents whose teen got a scholarship to go to an exclusive, elite private school, like an upper-class, six-figure-tuition, multi-millionaire-type school, and to no one’s surprise, their kid not only got bullied badly, but the rich kids who didn’t bully them just shunned them. It was an EXTREMELY classist school, and the parent was asking, “What do I do?!” Umm, how about taking your kid out? If the kid is smart enough to get a scholarship, then they could easily get into a good school with good grades. If the kid is in an environment where they get bullied, everyone hates them. They are insecure because they are surrounded by ultra-rich kids; their performance will be poor. And also, why are you shocked, Pikachu-faced, when you sent your kid here knowing there is a high probability the kid would get bullied?
my parents already are suspicious, i still gotta tell them why. so, i have a really negative body image and perception of myself and ive been sticking my finger in my mouth down my throat and taking laxatives in hopes itll make me lighter. ive lost about 8 pounds so far i think. one time, i lost 10 pounds but i forgot why, my weight fluctuates a lot tho because im on the younger side.
My uncle is very right-wing, racist, and a bit transphobic, as he thinks I’ll always be a girl. Here’s the thing: he apparently beat his ex-wife, causing her to leave his house and eventually divorce him. Since then, for about 13 years, he complains about not having her as a wife despite already having a new wife, can’t move on, and BLAMES HIS EX-WIFE for not wanting him anymore and thinks women are inherently evil.
hi. its me. i took a long break. just take a look at @drbollocks@lemmy.blahaj.zone if you wanna see how shitty a person i was and how bad my mental health was. i said people hated me for my autism but maybe not everyone was against me, and maybe it wasn’t my autism. maybe we were all just shitty people.
It should be your choice what bathroom you use. Even if you “look like a man” but are a woman, you should be able to use the women’s bathroom without being attacked. Same goes for men who “look like women”, in their words. Also, if a man “looks like a woman” or looks feminine but says his pronouns are he/him and that he’s a man, his pronouns are he/him and he’s a man.
So, yeah, my uncle’s kind of an ass. I am bigender or genderfluid or something and I use masculine and feminine pronouns, names, and genders interchangeably. However, I tried to come out to my uncle and he said I would always be a “female”, nothing could change it, and being trans was just a load of horseshit.
Yeah, I used to be a right-winger but I changed… I found some profile on Reddit who looked innocent, it was a girl being like “Your typical internet girl _” but the stuff she said were like “gay people are disgusting, I would NEVER date a bisexual man because he probably fucked a dude”, talking about how lesbians were evil, how immigrants were evil “things” and how they don’t deserve to be here documented even but also claims to care about immigrants and is like “I don’t want forced labour on these poor immigrants :,(” like which one is it? Are immigrants tools who deserve torture in prison camps or are they worthy of rights just like us natives?
My girlfriend before high school, had a friendship with 3 girls. Girl 1 claimed to be bi and later a lesbian but was straight and hung out with homophobic spoiled girls. Girl 2 claimed to be bi too and later an ally but then said she was actually homophobic and Christian. Girl 3 is extremely Christian, all 3 girls are Christian. She is anti-transition, defends Trump, and also wants to mass murder anti-Christians and abolish their religions or lack thereof.
1) The girl that said she was bi and that she was a lesbian but only liked guys and said that she wasn’t actually attracted to women. Hangs out with homophobic spoiled “popular” girls.
The biggest issue I’ve been seeing as an intellectual myself (in my case, as an autistic young man who doesn’t accept mainstream answers for anything, simplistic answers, and believes Ockham’s Razor is weaponized).
I live in an area where people ask you where you’re from and if you actually live in the neighborhood. They may assume you don’t speak English, like they have with my wife.
My only hobby is shopping, even if I can’t afford it I prefer to not eat if I can get new shoes, jewelry, clothes… I don’t understand how I ended up like this.
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